Lori Russell's Tribute (Brian's Vigil)

Everyone knows the term eulogy is a Greek word, meaning literally "words of praise". There is no shortage of words of praise when it comes to describing Brian. Brian appreciated the moon and just as the moon reflects light, Brian's dimpled grin lit up the room. There are so many things I love about Brian. He was not just my cousin. He was a close friend. A confidant. He was my poker buddy and date to plenty of Rangers games. It was at those Rangers games where we shared some of our innermost thoughts.

Brian never met a stranger. His personality is bigger than Planet Earth. He loved traveling, wilderness, and animals. He loved spur of the moment adventures, some of which I had the pleasure of joining him in. On one such adventure at the lake, Brian taught me how to play spades. I very much enjoyed vacationing with him in Padre. Brian loved to soak up the sun whether it be sprawled out on the sand, or on a float in the pool.

He could be a night owl and was relentless when it came to poker! I remember staying up until 2 or 3am with him, battling it out heads up. Of course, that was before I had children! He was competitive and challenged me, which I appreciated! He taught me about patience, whether it was with poker or in managing his easy-going spirit. Like the time a group of us told him not to drive his Jeep on the beach dunes, because he'd get stuck. Brian drove them anyway and got stuck and called us for help.

Brian's death has brought to mind several things. One, family is extremely important. We all need to be hereto support one another and we all need to know it's ok to lean on one another. We are SO fortunate to have such a large, wonderful, contributory family. Secondly, life is fragile. I'm adopting a new mantra "people before things". Laundry, dishes, bills, and chores will always be there. The people in your life though, may not. It wouldn't hurt any of us to adopt a bit of Brian's sunny side. Brian lived his 32 years to the very fullest. He gave hugs freely. He was the guy who would give you the shirt off his back if you needed it. I have learned to let my hair down a little more, so to speak. To take more risks and to live a little more fully. Also, don't be ashamed or embarrassed to tell people you love them. And, live without regrets!

Brian tried to. I will forever think of Brian as I listen to They Might Be Giants or the Old 97s, or even Jimmy Buffet. I will remember his pirate antics! I will miss him in a crazy costume at the annual Grinstead Halloween party. St. Patrick's Day will certainly never be the same! I will think of him while eating at Joe T.'s or Sake and will be missing him at our regular haunt Caves Lounge. I will think of Brian fondly when I watch the Rangers or Cubs play baseball. Also, I'll need to find another poker rival!

I know for certain that Brian is resting peacefully and that makes the grief a tiny bit easier to get through. It's nice to know we will have another protector looking down at us. He has been liberated and is no doubt hamming it up with family who've gone before. Peace and Love Always, Brian!