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from Billie and Allen, friends of family & Brian
Brian, our guardian angel,
Our hearts have been so heavy since you left us! We think of you every day. We miss your sweet smile and your infectious giggle. We loved you like a grandson and we will always love you!
Until we meet again you will be in our hearts. We know that heaven is a better place now that you are there.
God bless,
Allen and Billie
from Colleen, Brian's sister
I’m glad that so many of us can be here today. The act of returning Brian to one of his favorite bodies of water is deeply symbolic, I think.
Water cleanses, refreshes and renews us. It washes us clean. Brian never missed a chance to swim, or even to take a shower. He often took two or more showers a day! But he loved it when he could go for a swim in a lake, pool or ocean, in lieu of taking a shower at all.
That’s what I did today, and although I’m a little grimy on the outside, I feel pretty clean and refreshed on the inside, even purified. Maybe Brian was always seeking to cleanse himself too. Water made him feel whole, refreshed and clean. Maybe these clean, cool waves are a symbol of what Brian struggled for inside.
Many of us gathered on Brian’s birthday this year. We scattered his ashes in another beloved body of water, the Paluxy River.
Today, one year after Brian died, we gather to join him with the clean, cool, endless waves of Lake Michigan – and he wanted to be here. It makes me happy to know that Brian is part of this watery earth – all the oceans, lakes and rivers that flow around us.
Jessica and Patrick plan to share Brian with the Mississippi River on the drive home, thus delivering him to the Delta he loved. We won’t stop until we’ve scattered his ashes at all of his favorite watering holes, like Pickeral Lake, Caddo Lake, and the Gulf of Mexico.
Brian, deep peace of the cool, clean water to you. We love you.
from Terri, Brian's Mom
August 5 anniversary of Brian’s death
33years and 3 months ago, Brian came into this world. Today we gather to celebrate Brian and his life. We strive to answer the question: not why did Brian die but why did Brian live?
During this year without Brian, I have been rereading old journals piecing together parts of the 33 years Brian and I spent together. Like all the significant parts of someone’s life, the Brian pieces range between being wonderful and moderately horrible.
It would never do to add wings and halo to the figure of Brian. But, we would all agree about his most endearing qualities: he was a warm compassionate human being, exuding warmth, thoughtfulness, fun, engagement, love of nature and appreciation of all its gifts- especially the gift of water.
Brian could never have been fully aware of the pain his death has created in the hearts of those who loved him most. How can we ease this pain and not allow Brian’s most enduring legacy to be one of tragedy? I believe that each and every day, we can help him most by enjoying life, smiling and laughing, loving others, taking new steps in life toward positive new horizons, helping those who feel their loss to do the same and in short, not allow this tragic decision to create further sorrow. I believe it is what Brian would have us do.
33 years and 3 months ago, Brian emerged from my watery womb. Today, 33 years later, I offer his ashes back to the watery womb of the earth. I celebrate his rebirth into living water, eternal water, the cool, clear, blue waters of Lake Michigan. He is reborn into the nature that he cherished, into awesome creation of sand and rocks and running waves of healing water.
Grandma Casey, just as you relinquished your watch over Tim to me on our wedding day, I now turn to you- and ask you -to hold Brian warm and safe –and to hold Tim warm and safe – for all eternity. I am realizing that today - I can relinquish my hold and place them both in your loving hands. And- with the help of god, the angels and saints and all of our dear ones who have gone before us, confidently know that they are wrapped in a blanket of love.